Thank You For Calling...

Dear Reader,
My sincerest apologies for abandoning you.
A month ago or so I started my new job at US Bank Home Mortgage at a call center in Earth City. That's been a difficult transition for a few reasons.
Firstly, its a new schedule which is good and bad. I feel a lot more consistency in my life and it's easier to view the Sabbath as a real day for rest when you're working a lot. Still, work eats up a lot of my time energy and focus and it's hard to stay motivated to do things outside of it. Secondly, there is a lot to learn and I'm making a lot of mistakes right now and it can be really easy to beat myself up about that. I've been telling people that every day is a good and terrible one at the same time, because I always feel like I'm laughing hysterically, rolling my eyes, or wanting to break down all in the same day. Even though it's hard, I'm determined to stick with it until I get as good as Lisa (who is like my Office Mom and whom I love so very much for all her help!). Lastly, it's a hard transition because of the people. I'm the youngest with the exception of a guy named Patrick (who I do not relate to) and it can be hard to be respected when you're the youngest. This isn't anything new for me because I'm almost always the youngest in most situations, but it can be quite intimidating being around so many things.
Today, I'm sitting in Starbucks waiting for Ben to accompany me. The only reason I'm spending my time at a Starbucks is because I'm having a bit of an early life crisis. I'm starting to see this as something normal considering all that's happened in the past year and where I'm at now. I lost my dad and my family hurt me a lot and now I'm trying to figure out how to start my life? I don't think that's going to be an easy thing. Although this has been tough for me, and sometimes i just feel overwhelmed, I realized on the car ride here that there is no reason to run from the Lord (like I tend to do without realizing it). I forget so easily sometimes that He is on my side, is very near, and will always keep His promises.

Thank God for His comfort.

Chesly.