Random question: Have you ever overheard a weird conversation and left extremely confused? Well, that's how my day started. I was leaving Spanish 101 and as I'm walking out of Roemer Hall I hear two girls chatting to my right and here's how the dialogue went (or at least the little amount that I heard):
"...so then the bat rapes this girl and she gets pregnant.... bat boy.. so it all makes sense."
What!? I honestly walked away from that moment thinking, "This is going to be a strange day..."
The hilarity in my day actually started before this. I realized today that my Spanish teacher is a fan of the word "'Mmmkay." About five minutes into class I start noticing that she uses it fervently-after almost every sentence, actually! So naturally I decided to take note of how many times she did this. I missed a lot of it, mind you, for the sake of actually listening to what she was saying, but in the end I counted over 40 usages of Mmmkay's and Okay's.. Not including the ones that were in Spanish.
I also want to mention that as of today I am officially the member of the new Schulte lot family! Whoot!
But on a different note there's something I've learned today, that I pray God will use to encourage and reach others.
I just want to talk about humility for a second. The antonym for humility is pride, of which I have an overabundance. Today I've been realizing that the way I view myself and others is askew. I was reading in 1 Peter after realizing this and praying for some insight on what needs to happen to fix this problem. I got up for a minute and when I came back my bible was open to a new page in James 3.. It read this to me:
"13 Who is wise and understanding among you? m By his good conduct let him show his works nin the meekness of wisdom. 14 But if you have bitter o jealousy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast and be false to the truth. 15 This is not p the wisdom that comes down from above, but is earthly, unspiritual, q demonic.16 For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice. 17 But r the wisdom from above is first pure, then speaceable, gentle, open to reason, t full of mercy and good fruits,u impartial and vsincere. 18 And wa harvest of righteousness x is sown in peace by those who make peace."
After reading this I saw the error of my ways in a new light. Pride is often deeply rooted in jealousy. I've seen this manifest in my own heart. For example, I skim through Facebook- "Wow look at her pictures, they're all so creative. She's a really good photographer... I wish I was that good." or "He's so funny and witty..." "They're such a cute couple" so on and so fourth.
I've seen in myself that this is a huge struggle with pride. I too often find myself wanting to become something great, not for the glory of the only One worth the fame, but for myself. So that the tables are finally turned and people can look at me in awe. What a foolish desire!
My pride doesn't end there, but continues on in selfish ambition. It seeks to please me before I ever think of another. Too often it wants to boast in all the "amazing" things I have done, but when it hears the beautiful redemption story it yawns and refuses to tremble before the awesomeness of God.
This is me revealing my pride for what it is to you, Reader, and vulnerably exposing my heart to others around me. I'm praying for a pure heart that breathes and lives in genuine awe of something greater. If I am never viewed as anything more than unaccomplished and talentless than I am blessed, because my pride will have no room to breathe and my Creator may finally bask in better lighting, where He deserves to be.
The hilarity in my day actually started before this. I realized today that my Spanish teacher is a fan of the word "'Mmmkay." About five minutes into class I start noticing that she uses it fervently-after almost every sentence, actually! So naturally I decided to take note of how many times she did this. I missed a lot of it, mind you, for the sake of actually listening to what she was saying, but in the end I counted over 40 usages of Mmmkay's and Okay's.. Not including the ones that were in Spanish.
I also want to mention that as of today I am officially the member of the new Schulte lot family! Whoot!
But on a different note there's something I've learned today, that I pray God will use to encourage and reach others.
I just want to talk about humility for a second. The antonym for humility is pride, of which I have an overabundance. Today I've been realizing that the way I view myself and others is askew. I was reading in 1 Peter after realizing this and praying for some insight on what needs to happen to fix this problem. I got up for a minute and when I came back my bible was open to a new page in James 3.. It read this to me:
"13 Who is wise and understanding among you? m By his good conduct let him show his works nin the meekness of wisdom. 14 But if you have bitter o jealousy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast and be false to the truth. 15 This is not p the wisdom that comes down from above, but is earthly, unspiritual, q demonic.16 For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice. 17 But r the wisdom from above is first pure, then speaceable, gentle, open to reason, t full of mercy and good fruits,u impartial and vsincere. 18 And wa harvest of righteousness x is sown in peace by those who make peace."
After reading this I saw the error of my ways in a new light. Pride is often deeply rooted in jealousy. I've seen this manifest in my own heart. For example, I skim through Facebook- "Wow look at her pictures, they're all so creative. She's a really good photographer... I wish I was that good." or "He's so funny and witty..." "They're such a cute couple" so on and so fourth.
I've seen in myself that this is a huge struggle with pride. I too often find myself wanting to become something great, not for the glory of the only One worth the fame, but for myself. So that the tables are finally turned and people can look at me in awe. What a foolish desire!
My pride doesn't end there, but continues on in selfish ambition. It seeks to please me before I ever think of another. Too often it wants to boast in all the "amazing" things I have done, but when it hears the beautiful redemption story it yawns and refuses to tremble before the awesomeness of God.
This is me revealing my pride for what it is to you, Reader, and vulnerably exposing my heart to others around me. I'm praying for a pure heart that breathes and lives in genuine awe of something greater. If I am never viewed as anything more than unaccomplished and talentless than I am blessed, because my pride will have no room to breathe and my Creator may finally bask in better lighting, where He deserves to be.
That is all for now,
Chelsy
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