Undeserved Grace.

Dear Reader,

We just passed 400 views tonight.  I find that pretty cool because that means there's over a hundred views per post that I have on this page (if I'm not doing my math right... you can blame not taking that for two years now).

Today was hard. It amazes me how I can go from feeling closer to God then I ever have before to feeling like I may just give up on it all together all in one day. I don't understand how that happens. I think part of it is that I underestimate how much I truly need Him and His grace with me at all times. Maybe I get this idea that I can just handle things all by myself. But I had the words of a friend and a wonderful scripture to pull me back up.
Psalm 23:4
"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff they comfort me."
There were thoughts of just giving up Him today, just turning back because of fear or doubt. But every time I wrestled with that thought I just wanted to weep out of even the idea of it. Where would I be without Him? I'm literally the person I am today because of His faithfulness, and I can't escape Him, even if I tried. I know the ways of the world and they just aren't enough. I couldn't turn back after all He's done.

This next few months are going to be hard. There are a lot of decisions that need to be made. Sometimes I just feel like I'm having to grow up too quickly and I just wanna sit down. But maybe I need to just trust Him and let Him be my Father and take His hand, even if His strides are bigger than mine.
If I get tired I know He'll carry me on His shoulders.

Chelsy.